-ecclesiastes 3:2
as our family anticipates the arrival of this new little one, we are met with every emotion. it's difficult for me to quit thinking that happiness lies in the future, no matter how badly we yearn for it. but rather, we must be fully present, giving into the slow-drip of time and of waiting. there is only so many more days left as a family of three--as hadley being our only child--and i long so badly to savor these moments, to soak up all the richness that is right now.
with less than two days to go until the "due date," we will be going about our days quite the same but with an emphasis on being here, fully invested. i place quotations there because, well, baby could come any day now...or she may possibly wait for a few more weeks (crossing my fingers the latter does not happen).
to add to my anxiety, david came down with a cold about a week ago and we were nervous because if anyone is sick at all, they are not allowed to attend the birth where i am delivering-- the birthing inn. well thankfully he is on the mend, but i woke up today with congestion and a throat so swollen every time i swallow it feels like razor blades are slowly making their way down. so i will be taking it really easy this evening, ordering spicy thai food, downing as much water as possible and soaking in epsom salt baths.
it feels like the lord is really trying to hit home with me that nothing is ever completely in my control and i need to learn to be alright with that. to let go.
ecclesiastes 3 is a gentle reminder that everything will happen right when it is meant to be. to have come this far in anticipation and expectation, and to continue to wait is difficult especially with these new obstacles. patience, joy and appreciation are the things i am learning in these final days, hours, as we wait and surrender.
a huge thank you to erin dupree photography for taking these images we will cherish forever of us still just a family of three.
hadley's outfit:
-dress: canvas house designs
-bow: khahn
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